I keep having flashbacks, it feels like regressing and becoming a child again when I was terrified and had no life. Flashbacks, dissociation and panic attacks, that’s how I’ve been spending my days. I’m glad I’ve learned many coping skills but they are not a miracle, I’m avoiding causing harm to myself but the despair remains.
Life has become dangerous, I feel like I’m going backwards now, I feel that having a self is dangerous again. Anything I do can be attacked or mocked again.
I’m trapped. I don’t know what to do.
I think more details only in a next password protect post, I just don’t feel safe writing here.
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